It’s important to know when you’re a filler
No, not just a filler
But a “filler person”
You waltz in and out of peoples lives for a specific purpose
This purpose could be to provide a smile
Give them a headache
Make them laugh
Cry
Complain
Be that random person that lets them cry on your shoulder
Help them when they are drunk
Talk them through a rough night
A breakup
Cancer
Death
Dreams
The loss of a child when no one knew you were even pregnant
Who drove to see you at the hospital
You knew a couple of people in town but you called her to take you
To stay with you
She was your filler summer girl
A classmate
The girl at the bar
The boy at the river
The party girl
The party boy
The person everyone knows, but no one really knows
They all yell your name when you walk in the door
Happy to see you, but don’t know what to talk to you about
Because you’re the person who always pulls the conversation out of them
To fill their silence
To make them smile and feel important
A person to look up to for a short period of time
The person who lets you down for a short period of time
The girlfriend that breaks up with you because you’re not doing anything with your life
Yeah, she was that kick in the butt so you would begin your life
The boy who asks you if you are better together or as friends
You say together
He says friends
Perfect! You’re his filler non relationship girl.
The girl in high school that you saw
She was the first girl you saw intimately
She was the filler girl for one semester to get to senior year
To get to college and find the other girl
She remembers you….
The way you looked at her - “God you are so beautiful”
The tone in your voice was the sweetest music to her ears.
You meant it
-She’ll never forget the sincerity of tone
-You didn’t look at her with just lust, but with clarity of who she was at that moment
-What she meant to you at that specific second
This filler girl has carried that moment with her through her life
She thinks fondly upon that moment
Wishes it back into her world
Seeks the next moment to be gazed upon with such adoration
The guy who wanted to be with her, but she said no
You probably think you were just her overlapper, her filler to get to the next guy
You’ll never know how much she wishes you back
Summer parties
Summer friends
Another face in the crowd
The girl who comes to visit you while you’re in town so you have someone to “be with” while your other is at home
The boy who longs for togetherness, but she doesn’t want that with him but gives him half because she’s lonely
You were her filler
Now, there are more filler situations in life
and filler is such a cruel word to call it, isn’t it?
Yet it’s the truth
……….and in a way….no not just in a way
We are
We all are fillers
We are the people you woke up to once
We are the people you sat next to on the bus
We are the people you bought a shot for
We are the people you gave a complement to
We are the people you once loved
once hated
cried over
gossiped about
lied about
laughed at
fell for
Our lives are filled with fillers
That’s all it is.
We are filled
We are empty
We are lost
We are found
We are loved
We are feared
We are confident
We are children
We are hopeful
We are rich
We are devastatingly poor
We are beautiful
We are horrific
We are ill
We are healthy
We are fillers
Own it.
Be one
Use one
Help one
Just make sure you’re a good one.
We are all fillers
Fill yourself to the brim with wonderful deeds and thoughts
And maybe you will find another filler person to spend the rest of your life with.
---Then in turn are no longer a filler, but are one with your other half
