Till Death Do Us Part

You loved me

Happiness felt like you

We found innocents in each other

Liberation

Weeping

Laughter

Killing beauty

Loving you for forever

Mourning you

Never again

My first love has vanished

My first soul mate evaporated

  

And now I know

Seeing you with her

Walking out

Counterfeit smiles

Flawless

Faultless

Benevolent

Bright

She is perfect for you 

But she’s no me.

Internal Monologue of a Southbound Bird

There is nothing left

Reason to live? 

Not for my own 

For God, friends, family, and my future students

I’m not living for me

But then I think, no I am

I am what I want?

Job, friends, choices

Thankful

People would kill to have things I have, experiences I have had, and the ones to come

How does emptiness occur?

How does pain happen?

God is missing?

Fully recommit back to Him

There is an eagerness

A hunger

I want

Want

Loving

Lasting

Relationships on earth

NO

Look toward heavenly things

Lay up for heaven

It hurts

Hurt

Cry

Days pass

Death lingers near

Would it be better if I...

I long for more

What to do?

Follow God’s plan

Nothing good ever came from not following His plan

Live the life

Try

I’m stuck

Work harder? But I’m always working

Lazy, tired, worthless

I’ll try

Be like Him

God grant me wisdom

Grant me peace

Grant me love

Grant me kindness

Help me.

I’m drowning.

To You

You are self absorbed
You are so beautiful
And you know it
You get everything you want
You are a flake
You make women feel like they are worthless
You are talented
You are a tease
You think you're a good person
You are charming
You make me want you
You take what you and leave
You won't talk to me for months and then you walk back in
You talk me up just to let me down
You are a liar
You don't care about what anyone else feels
You don't care and I do
You make me cry
You are manipulative
You are just like him...